source: keri meyers photography via andeeeve on pinterest
as i have written about before
possibly the greatest desire of my heart is to be a mama
and mr. handsome and i are on our journey to baby.
we've been doing our part for over a year
the Lord guiding us all the way through
about a month ago
we decided
with His guidance
to seek a fertility specialist.
whew! big step!
i talked to friends who've been through it before
it's been yucky
never a fan of drawing blood
i'm gettin' over that one real quick.
and then a few weeks into the journey i take a test
called hsg
i nearly fainted on the table
ha
it didn't hurt
but it was very uncomfortable
they put a dye inside my uterus and fallopian tubes
it's supposed to see if there's any blockage in the tubes.
guess what?
there was.
blockage.
left tube completely blocked
right tube has what they call adhesions
doctor says they are like spider webs blocking flow
and we want no blockage-
mr. sperm meet miss egg please
oh yeah, there's also a polyp on my uterus
awesome.
ha
not so much
i have been through the gamut of emotions on this one
tears
fear
brave
tears
courage
but through it all
my faith has never
not once
waned.
i'm counting it all joy.
His power is made perfect in my weakness
He did not give me a spirit of fear-
but of power, love and sound mind
today i'm stepping out
in that same faith
courage
and joy
trusting in Him
my healer
and today
i'm also
at the doctor's office
gettin' an operation
removing the left tube
and seeing if the right tube can be cleared
removing the polyp
if there's one thing
one awesome gift
i am already receiving from this experience
is the gift of greater faith
greater trust
blessings come
in unexpected packages sometimes
i've debated whether to share this here
i've needed some time
to process it all
but i'm all about being real
they've given me hope
strength
and love
so today i share some real with you
and we are still walking it out
we are
on the journey,
Andee, I am glad you are finding some "reasons" as to what might be preventing a baby. I want to encourage you to keep on, to keep 'fighting'... After a year a year of trying and Drs saying I'm not ovulating [for some unknown reason]- we ARE finally expecting a MIRACLE baby!! I am praying for you and your husband!! God is faithful!!
ReplyDeletepraying and praying for you today, sweet friend! xo
ReplyDeletePrayers for you during your surgery today! Your faith through this trial is so encouraging. I'll continue to pray for your journey!
ReplyDeletePraying for you! This is how we overcome, by the blood of the lamb AND THE WORD OF OUR TESTIMONY.. Keep speaking of God's goodness!
ReplyDeleteI pray for your surgery... that God's healing, guiding hands would be with all the medical professionals that are attending to you. I pray that He will comfort you and strengthen you and your husband through this trial. I pray that in His timing and in His perfect plan, He will fulfill the desires of your heart in beautiful, unexpected ways! Your pursuit of joy inspires me in my own difficult valley right now. Thank you! Much love to you and your sweet husband as you press into your Hope, our great God.
ReplyDeleteMy prayers are with you today Andee! Praise God for your faith and testimony! Praise God for modern medicine and professionals! Praise God for His healing power and perfect plan!
ReplyDeleteI read this and thought of you: "But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more. My mouth will tell of your righteousness, of your salvation all day long, though I know not its measure. I will come and proclaim your mighty acts, O Sovereign Lord; I will proclaim your righteousness, yours alone." Psalm 71:14-16
Your faith has been a blessing to us all Andee - thank you so much for sharing.
oh. mly sweet blog friends!
ReplyDeletemy sisters!
my girls who "get" me..
thank you thank you
for your prayers
for your love & support
for reaching out to me
i want to write each of you long long personal thank yous on email
but right now i'm a litle out of it.
home from the hospital
all is good.
I'm so sleepy now- after a surgery can do that to ya, i guess
but just know, I love and cherish each of you
and you lesbs me beyond words can say.
love you sisters!
xo
andee
ps i hereby blame any typos on painkillers.ha.
my prayers and thoughts are with you sweet friend! Lean on God and trust in His will!
ReplyDeletei meant to write you"bless" me!
ReplyDeleteha
i just knew i'd have a typo
love you girls!
I am so SO glad you shared this with us. I will be praying for you! At this point your operation is already over. Rest up and take good care of yourself!
ReplyDeleteYour faith is so inspiring. Praying God will bless you and your hubs with the desires of your heart. You will make a GREAT mama!
Praying your surgery went well, Andee, and I'm glad you decided to share more of your journey on your blog! Thanks for the link too. :-)
ReplyDeleteDidn't hurt? I lay there with tears streaming from my eyes because it hurt so badly. Of course I learned later it wasn't supposed to hurt and that it must have been "operator error!" Best wishes to you on your journey. I'm due with our little miracle next week thanks to our wonderful fertility doctor. It's amazing to have such wonderful help available.
ReplyDeletePraying for a speedy physical recovery and overwhelming emotional and spiritual peace and trust!
ReplyDeletewow ... what a strog women you are! brought tears to my eyes ... but brought so much joy to my heart how you are still puttig God first! your now officially on my prayer list!
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. I had the hsg test done this summer...but it hurt a lot. My tubes were open, but my uterus is heart shaped and I have a fibroid. Both of which make conceiving hard. I hope your surgery goes well!! My prayers are with you! xoxo
ReplyDeleteI've been behind on blog reading, but I"m so glad I found this. Thank you for sharing! We've just begun trying and it's easy to get so frustrated. Thank you for the sweet reminders of holding fast to Him!
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